Manipulate

相反的我

2010-08-08T19:41:00.003+08:00

我看着镜子后面皱著眉的我
很孤单她有话想说
像天空不会永远都是蓝色的
有阴天你才会抬头
走穿多少的巷弄
笑了哭了
有三四个人爱我

我想要一个乱了
数字的时钟
我想做一个完全相反的我
我在这个世界拼命些什么
累死我
我有双不听任何命令的耳朵
去享受快乐加上自由的我
我要变成一颗透明的石头
我不会动
也不会痛

像轮胎用了太久没气了所以
原谅我想消失几周
每个人都在选好的轨道奔走
讲真的我想要呼救
请看爱情的脸孔
美的丑的

几千万人都被愚弄了

我想要一个乱了
数字的时钟
我想做一个完全相反的我
我在这个世界拼命些什么
累死我
我有双不听任何命令的耳朵
去享受快乐加上自由的我
我要变成一颗透明的石头
我不会动
也不会痛

这个我那个我
不一样的我
等什么想什么
怕什么

我想要一个乱了
数字的时钟
我想做一个完全相反的我
我在这个世界拼命些什么
累死我
我有双不听任何命令的耳朵
去享受快乐加上自由的我
我要变成一颗透明的石头
我不会动
也不会痛

national day celebration!

2010-08-06T20:22:00.000+08:00

schools are celebrating national day! Teehee! Our school obviously too. But it's only a short while. I love only the 911 parade. Ncc, ncc all the way!! Freestyly drill of our cute and handsome ncc guys are the best. 911, 911, 911.. *heartsheartshearts*

wahlao..

2010-08-06T20:13:00.003+08:00

all thanks to SOMEONE, i needa private my blog. Nice one. Thanks a lot man.. Anyway, meanwhile, until i get to use the computer, i'll reopen my blog and change the pictures. Teehee. I'll just keep posting until then. Hahahahs. Me now talking on the phone and posting. Multi-tasking. Lalala. I love today!! Karaoke with rachel and yuxin. They very crazy man. Dance here and there. Then we all jump jump jump like mad. Hahahs! I think the neighbour will want to kill us. I met a new friend. Her name is vivi. She's a very pretty lady man. She have brown fur and curly fur. She's a beautiful dog(: i love you, vivi. Hahahas.

its was not intentional

2010-08-03T11:42:00.002+08:00

Things just doesn't come out in the way i want. Things just doens't come out to be in a pleasant way. Things just likes to be complicated. Things just like to be unsolvble. So, is that hint telling me that, the things that i asked you, just can't be solved anymore and it's over? I'm sorry i doubt you.But those are really the stuffs that i want to ask. I know you'll be unhappy, i knmow you'll be angry, i know you'll create trouble. But i just want to clear my doubts. Seems like the questions that i asked you din't clear my doubts and instead it make you angry too. Many people, including teachers know that we're together. I know there are teachers who are unhappy with me. Or maybe hate me a lot. Today, one of the teacher just diao me. If i don't have see wrong, then i guess, it's true? So many things happened. The west coast thing is gonna cause me many troubles. I guess when it comes or maybe other stuffs when i need you by my side, you won't be with me anymore? I won't have someone to share my happiness, my sorrow, my hatred, my anger and any other stuffs. I guess, maybe we're over. Haha.. seems like my wish of having 3rd month, won't come true huh?
You're angry. Very angry. I know you did something, i know. I know you're hiding something, i know that too. You're angry that i doubt you. I guess, i can prepare to give you back what you've given me. I guess it's the end. I guess, it's over. Why do i feel like laughing? Why do i feel like crying? Why do i feel like.. my heart's gonna tear apart? I feel my heart crying. Congrats me.
I'm happy.. I'll be happy..

whatthehell..

2010-08-01T16:02:00.002+08:00

It's not as if it's the first time. Now i know why people get beaten up fro diaoing people -.- they seriously is trying to purposely get in to trouble. Fuck sia. 2nd time man. It's the 2nd time. 3rd time i'm gonna beat up those bitches who diao me for no reason. WTF. Yesterday i went to west coast park. Jiahong and many many others were flying kites. I went there for a while only. When i left, there's this girl with her boyf whom i think renjie or jiahong invited to go, diao me, for no fucking reasonable reason. Butt hole face sia. She think she who sia. KNN. I didn't even talk to her. I didn't even looked at her. I told adat and he said he saw the girl kept looking at me when i was sitting on the field. WTF, either she's jealous or she's mad. WHATEVER?! Her face when she diao me is totally damn fucked up butt hole. She diao me like i owe her gazillion dollars and i killed her whole family. What sia. Or was it my wearing that irks her? I wore a brown tank top, and a black skinnies. I have a red shirt retarded boyf with me by my side. That's all what. Or she like adat?! :O woo.. LOL. Eeish.. I think if winnie saw her face she'll go slap her lohs.. -.- hahahs! RANDOM. Whatever. In any case, yesterday sucks like hell.. haiis.. LIFE STILL GOES ON..

LOL

2010-07-27T12:20:00.002+08:00

' my tag board is empty! Cheebye.. ' that's what i told yuxin(:
' xiaoyu! adat adat! ' That's what everybody told me but instead he came to find udin -.-

It's friggling cold man.. As in now, right now, in com lab. WTF! OM got the keys that lock up the switch for aircon. Then cannot change -.- I'm in north pole!!

Athirah! Superwoman!! :DDD

offensive and creates trouble post

2010-07-23T22:13:00.002+08:00

For what fuck should i care anymore? I don't see a reason why i'm the only people who's feeling unhappy. So if anyone thinks that this post is offensive then don't read it. I'm warning you first. Don't after reading come tio taiji with me. Cause i'm fucking pissed. So don't come and give me fucking problems. If you think that i'm talking bout you, then too bad. Don't come find me if you think i'm talking bout you. Cause this will only make you look like you're guilty. Since you didn't do anything, then why come find me? Go find your mother and complain. I don't have fucking time for you, fuckers.

Por? Are you having fun? Poring so many people from me. Well done. Cause you succeed. I give up. I'm keeping in silence bout it. For always. From as long as i know you well enough. That's one of your strengths. I should have saw it coming. Having fun? Fun hoh? To be surrounded by so many people. Just like always, make people think that you're nice with weird ways then after that they'll go to you naturally. Even L you also stealing away. Nice one hoh. Go suck some dick lahs please. Be mature lehs. Everytime i see the method that you do, you not sian i also sian sia. Knn. Gampua lame sia. Anyway, congrats PUBO! _|_

Guys? Do guys really mean so much to you? Hahahs. Then go find some guy who can stick around you for 24/7. Don't make people see what the hell you're trying to do. Cause's it's just too obvious to be true.

Done.

I'm done with the offensive thingy. I could have typed more but i'm just lazy to type those stuffs out. I'm not pure evil. Whatever. Fuck care. Cause i'm frggling irritated. FML. FTW. Guess what? I hate you(: tyvm.

i'll pass..

2010-07-22T19:51:00.000+08:00

currently i'm having a test. Big test. The candidates for this kind of test must have patience, strong willpower, persistant and determination then can pass. But, i don't have any of those. My wifeys, am i right? (: I don't have any patience. I have no strong willpower, i give up easily. I'm not persistant and of course, no determination at all. But, why is it that i'm taking this test? Who given me this test? How in the world will i ever pass? Well, i'm taking this test because i it's for me. If i pass it, i'll have a smooth life. Who given me this test? Mm... Mother of love i guess? She thinks that it's time for me to take this test to prove whether i'm true. Since i've none of the needs to pass this test, of course logically i'll fail. But of all the tests that i had, this test, it's the test that i want to pass so so so so so so so so much. So, people, hope that i pass ok? (:

rafeek's totally ridiculous

2010-07-22T19:42:00.002+08:00

did someone beat rafeek up before? And did that person have some angkong or whatever scar thing? It was only a scar and he want boyf to lazer it away?! What fucking logic is this?! He is either ridiculous or his too old and is having some problem thinking. Yes, he did cut himself. And when it heals it'll have a scar. And like i said, it'll heal! So why is there a need to lazer it away?! Lazering it will only make a scar on top of a scar! Wtf is rafeek thinking?! He like to see people in pain?! Doesn't he know how painful after the lazer is done?! What right's does he have?! Who the fuck he think he is?! Fucking dog face.. It is not a angkong blind ass! It's just slits from penknife and he's saying it's angkong?! No brain man!

it's just too much

2010-07-19T21:15:00.002+08:00

even for my wifeys or much less boyf, they may not know what had really happened in my life. I told them one of the major. But there are so much more that i'm not gonna tell her. Cause i'm already very shocked when i know bout all those stuffs. If they knew, they won't be able to take it.. What should i do? I don't know how much i can hold this stuffs for.. It's just too scary and horrible.. I hate myself... There's just too much stuffs that i know recently. Only for 4 days. How can i take so much?!

i've been throught before

2010-07-19T20:32:00.003+08:00

currently i'm gonna declare something. But hope it doesn't spoil our friendship or what. But that's the truth and i'm gonna clarify it.
you met a jerk. You cried a lot. You suffered alot. You got through it. You said i didn't been through situation like you. Yes, i didn't. But doesn't mean i haven't met any jerk. Different situation make you meet different type of jerk. And obviously, you don't know who i met. And i'm not gonna tell anyone. Cause no one knows. I can only tell you the guy that i met, is no better. Don't try to ask me who. I won't say. So don't try ans waste energy or salivar. I know you got over it. And i know you do need time. I want you to face him because i know only then you can get through it even faster. Only if you face your ' problem ' then you can solve it even faster. It may suck to see what he can do to hurt you. But you must think that you guys are over. He can't hurt you anymore. He dares, you'll show him what you're made of. And you still have us around you. There's nothing you need to fear of. I may not really know what you're currently feeling but i only know that you can face it. I've gotten over it. You've pass the first stage - break up. You've pass the second stage - get over it. Now's the third stage - face it. Face it as in not i'm saying you haven't gotten over it so face it but is actually face it as in you can heck care whatever he does now. It doesn't concerns you. He's just trying to test you by doing some stupid things. He's thinking highly of himself. He's thinking you still have feelings for him. Be selfish and prove to him you're not. Then there's only the last stage - classmate. Just treat him like how you treat minghao? As in you two no talk. But you guys are just classmate. Then only hi, bye like that.
these are what i'm gonna say. I don't know if it's even linked to your current thoughts. Still, we're wifey and husby. So, i love you(:

primary school days are priceless..

2010-07-18T22:21:00.002+08:00

today when i was in fb, i came across my primary school ftiends' class photo. It was when they're in boon lay primary. I was only in there when i was p3. Then we started chatting a lot. Bout the stuffs that we had when we were in primary school. Everybody changed. Miss lim joined in too. And god.. I really miss her a lot. Miss lim is one of my fave teacher. How i wish she's teaching me. Anyone would have love her lessons. Primary school days are indeed priceless. Though there are unhappiness as we were immature then, still, they're always with me. Nothing can erase this memory from me. Not even after i was brainwashed. Not after what trash i've been through..

2010-07-18T17:29:00.000+08:00

Ain't he cute:O

since i got nothing better to do..

2010-07-18T12:45:00.006+08:00

people, since i got nothing better to do, i'm gonna keep posting and posting bout random things. Ok? Lols! Whatthheck's wrong with my life man! Actually i thought of going to take nap but even more waste time. And that ass will say i'm a pig again -.- let's see. Ok. Ii'm gonna ask some things. Give comments alright?

1. Where should i go for my birthday? As in can don't treat it as a birthday outing. Just a normal shopping outing or something.

2. Have you ever had a auper sucky misunderstanding?

3. My wifes, when can we go out? Huh mdm koh, tan and chow??

4. Is loving a persin more than in your own plan a bad thing??

5. What should i do now?

6. Should i do my homework now? Lazy lehs...

7. What are you doing right now? As in seriously right now

8. Song recommandations? Limited songs currently.. -.-

raining raining and friggling raining

2010-07-18T12:45:00.003+08:00

it's been raining ever since yesterday. Guess orchard or somewhere else gonna flood again. * shouting out to people house get flooded * goodluck! And anyone want go orchard now? Maybe got one coach or LV or even better miu miu bag come floating across. Lols! Ok, the major problem i'm having now is total boredom. Wth. Maybe i should listen to rain's love song or something. Haahahs! I bet yuxin will be very happy^^ she crazy rain man!! One thing, don't ask me why i use formspring. I just want testing. If it's better than shoutmix then i'll continue using. But guess i'm gonna change back to shoutmix. I don't even get a heck about formspring. Too complicated for dumb people like me. Hahahas. Currently listening to 2am songs. It's not like i'm starting to like 2am or what. I just think that their song very nice. So, go listen(: enjoyenjoy! Wahlao eh.. I rather i'm in malaysia now. Mom said yesterday go malaysia go see grandma. But in the end is she remember wrong date. Forgetful sia! Then in the end yesterday night boyf went to malaysia today morning then came back -.- bet he enjoyed. Chey!! Lols! Yesterday night aunt asked if want go fly kite. And yes, it's at night where can see nothing in the dark sky. But got light what.. I want go. But dad too lazy, sleeping, then don't want bring us there. Wahlao! Damn friggling bored sia!!! Nevermind. Guess i'll wait until sis use finish com and boyf wake up then talk. -.- my mom currently cleaning up the whole fridge for don't know what reason. See?! Not only i'm bored.. Ahhhhhh....

friggling bored

2010-07-17T20:24:00.002+08:00

It's a boring day. Woke up and it's rain heavily. Can't even see outside. Only see white. Total whiteness and some big big lightning. So, decided to went back to sleep. Woke up and realised that no one was at home. Whatever. Then i fell asleep again. Then mom came back from market. Afternoon eat then use computer. Doing my new blogskin. Edit edit. Slowly slowly edit to let time past by. Then called boyf. Congrats man! he's having a hard time cleaning his father car while i enjoying boredom life. LOL. Well, he get paid and i don't. -.- lucky him. Then facebook facebook. Now blogging again. Was listening to 2am's song the whole morning and afternoon. Currently listening to shinee's jojo. I miss shinee so so much! Their coming back. Saw their comeback photos. Erm.. Not what lahs. But seriously key, taemin, onew and minho looks weird. Not because i've always love jonghyun the most, but then seriously. LOL. Maybe because he didn't change that much. Hahahs! Nevermind, i still love them! Hahahs!

* I love dumbo *

disappointed in myself

2010-07-16T21:21:00.003+08:00

i feel so disappointed with myself. I let down my parents for so so so many times. And each time, it just got worst. I'm talking bout my bloody phone bill. Yeap, my phone bill came and it totally sucks. Normally, i always make my own phone bill burst. But now, for my last month and today's phone bill, i make not only my own phone bill burst but my sis's too. One thing, i don't care it's my sis phone. I care because i actually made two phone bill burst. Which is for me, overboard. Wtf was i thinking. Hello?! There's still financial crisis! Dad and mom are working so hard. And me, this fucked-up daughter, only know how to waste their money. Dad and mom have only been kept warning me control myself and only scare me saying they'll confiscate my phone if my next phone bill burst again. Tried to control. But i guess, my will power of controlling wasn't that good and it
definately should need some work in building it to be strong. I'm just so addicted to msging. I mean if i can't call using hp, i can use house phone what. But now, annoying dog keep using the phone. She thinks that the whole world
, only she need to use the phone. She wants, she wants. I hate her. I bear with her for more than enough. Wtf she still wants? The older she is the older she wants to get in her way. Then? Then she kaobei me lahs! Come bo dai ji suddenly guailan kaobei. Pubo! Knn. She did more things than keep owning the house phone, obviously.. My friends keep saying what she very cute and innocent and whar i look like her. Firstly, she's not cute at all. She is act cute only. ACTING! Secondly, innocent?! Please lahs hoh. You come be me for one day and see how ' innocent ' is she lohs. Thirdly, why the fuck should i look like her?! Please lohs. * touch wood * if i ever become like her, i'll rather i commit suicide. * choi choi choi * * pui pui pui * disgusting piece of shit..

happy 2nd month!

2010-07-16T21:19:00.002+08:00

actually on 13 july was my 2nd month! LOLL. But i didn't had time to post. In fact, for the past few days i didn't have time to post. So, bi, happy 2nd month^^ hope we'll last long. Maybe not super long but as least long(:

oh please..

2010-07-11T15:16:00.003+08:00

eh, please hoh. Don't act like you're the oh-i'm-so-so-innocent type of girl. Look back at what you've done and reflect please, if you still have conscious and you will feel guilty. Go happy happy with your disgusting guy. And be disgusting times double couple. Congrats! You've found the right person for you. So stop hurting others. -.-

rolling tears

2010-07-04T01:27:00.002+08:00

you don't know. You won't know. I don't want you to know.

boy, you don't know how much i love you, how much i need you, how much you mean to me, how important you are to me, how worried i am for you and many more. You don't know that now i'm crying for you. I'm crying because i'm at fault. When i called you, i tried to find things to say. I tried as hard as i can to find a topic to talk with you. I did. But your answers were just : ' oh. Hahas. Ok. Hahahs. '. You talk to yourself bout the show that you're watching and the game that argentina had lost, more than you bother talking on the phone. I've tried to talk as much things as i feel that i can talk about. But it just doesn't seem to intrest you. Am i right? So i decided to stay quiet. I guess that's wrong. Because we ended up not talking at all. Except for : ' haiis.. Bored sia.. Haiis.. ' that's all. I asked if you're ok because i know something's bothering you. But you just won't say. You said you were ok. Why can't you just say what happened?! Do you know when you say that you're ok and i know you're not, you know how worried i am?! I bet you don't! I hold on. I'm holding on. Bearing my tears. In the end, you said : ' forget it bi. YOu go sleep. ' . Is that all? When i said ok unwillingly, you immediately hanged up. I just cried immediately.then you texted and said : ' don't reply. Byebye'. Is that coldness from you. Do you know how useless and helpless i feel this feel days? Things that happened you and your family. You know how worried i am for you? I worried that you'll break down. I worried that you can't manage. But i can't help in anyway. I may seem calm but deep down inside, i'm freaking worrying for you. And now, even a phone call, i can't even manage a phone call with you. So what else can i do? I'm sorry that i'm lousy. I'm sorry that i can't help in anyway. God.. I can only cry now. And god.. Damn.. My heart hurts so much..

drugged

2010-07-03T00:02:00.002+08:00

what had happened to me? I have this sudden feeling of crying out loud. Sometimes i can't even understand myself. Crying over no matter, that's really emo..

are we gonna drift apart? We seem to be a little apart ever since school reopen. Stuffs had happen to you and your family. You've been so stressed up. You're stressing out and all i can do is say : ' don't stress out. Relax ' / ' breathe in, breathe out !! '. Can't i do a better job? I feel so helpless.. I can't do anything right in anything. Ok, let's not talk bout any other. We talk bout meself. I can't even understand myself. Sometimes i don't even know which is me. Am i the cheerful vulgar girl which is always shown in school or the peaceful, emo and more to girl me? Which is me? I feel so helpless that i can even help myself. The least that i can do. The very least, i can't even do it right? What shit did i ate when i am born?
Get a life - i guess that's what i need. Seeing him so stress out and i can't help in anyway other than don't show how sad and worried i am for him to add up his burden, i don't know what else i can do? Ok, i don't feel helpless now. I feel useless..

for what i have for myself, my expectation for myself, it's just so simple, yet i seem to can't complete it? I always tell myself i cannot cry. Never. But i can't. Sometimes i tell myself i cannot cry. Example when i'm scolded for what i've not did wrong but i'm dragged in the picture, i cry, i'll tell myself : ' don't cry. You don't deserve to cry. Because there are much more pitiful people than you. '

my heartfelt words(:

2010-07-01T22:31:00.003+08:00

my mdm tan, rachel, asked me to read her blog post. Well, i did. A moment ago. And i decided to say some heartfelt words too(: aren't i a copycat? Lols! Whatever! When was the last time i confess my love to my dearest and my hatred to some assholes? Anyway, there's a lot of people that i want to say actually. So, here it goes :
First up, my wifey - mdm chow, winnie : hey darling! You know i love so, yahs, i love you! Lols! Thanks for being a hou peng yew ( means good friend, try and pronounce it. Hahahas ). We're always gossiping bout people, things and happenings. Oh! And of course, kpop! Woo! SHINee jongkey foreverness. Teehee.. We didn't really ever quarrelled. Have but is because of other people and you're somehow in the picture that's why we quarrelled, a bit. But still, we're bestf! Woohoo! Yeah! Ohmygod! We're gonna make sushi! Yeahyeahyeah! Hahahas ok. Saranghaeyo(:

Next up, my wifey - mdm tan, rachel : hey sweetheart. You know what i'm gonna say don't you? Indeed we have conflicts in the past 2 years. And we're not gonna have a 3 year annivesary of it. No worries. I'm old already lehs.. Don't have so much energy sia. Sia lahs sia! Lols! We've gone through more than with any of the two other wifey. So, it's kinda a big thing to me, i think? We laugh a lot. We retard a lot. And thanks for being in my life. You played quite a part in my life. Whatever. Conclusion : i love you, you love me. We are happy family. Lmao! I know you love taemin and kaka. There're always on your table like some god and you're praying them. Workshipping huh? Hahahs(:

And now, my last witfey - mdm koh, yuxin : hey babe! Although we're only close starting from this year, it felt like we're good friends for more than 10 years. God.. We're good~ hahahs! We're always talking mainly relationships. What can i say? We're so emotional. Lols! You're always there for me when i needed you ( unless you didn't reply my msges at times. Teehee.. ). You cried so so many times. You asked for help for so so many times. You've been through so so much of stuffs that's not what you deserve from love. But no matter where, when, what, why, who, how, here, there, everywhere, anywhere, anytime, i'll be here for you. Don't worry, although you're my third wife, i love you as much too. Lols! I love you(:

Now, for my bestf - chong : hey sister! Hahahas! We fight a lot man. People spar using hands, legs, and whatever body parts. But we use mouth. Pro lehs!! Woohoo!! Ok anyway, chong, you're a great friend. Just that you're a bt dumb in some common sense, sacarstic at times, don't have jio me out already, burps at my face which damn friggling disgusting, farts and say : ' i just farted ' and many more, still you're my very very bestf(: yeah!! Chong, you know i love you right? Teehee:D And you'll find a better girl 1 million, billion, gazillion better than her. No worries. No bother want you nevermind. Cause i'll end up don't want you also. Lols! Jkjk! I'll here for you lahs! (:

Not to miss out my dearest sweetheart, sammie kewl : samantha! You're more than a cousin to me. You're more like a good friend to me. The things that we do together is more than i can ever have. The happiness you've given, i appreciate that. I'm glad that you're my cousin. And of course you cute lil sis too. That mini size woman. Tell her eat more lahs! Wahlao.. See her so pretty and slim, i jealous sia! Hahahs! I love you sammie!

And my mr-currently-in-NS-guy, sebas : pig head, i don't know if you know my blog or not but still. I'm gonna say some heart felt words to you. Don't tell me what i mushy or weird. Cause this is me! So shut up and read! Lols! Ok btw, you're a great friend, great adviser. You've given me so so much advise and comments that brighten me up. Athough the comments does not really sound like you're on my side. Still, thanks a lot mr! I'm glad i got to know you. And seriously, last time because of the join gang thingy i quarrelled with my friend just because i needa give michelle face and go find you, i did regretted. But now, after knowing that i get to know such a nice person like you, i don't regret a single bit anymore. Thankyou pig head! And your monkey is still well and safe with me(:

Last but not least, you guys can guess, my boyf - adat! Ok, too bad. I'm not gonna type out what's my heartfelt words for him. Bleah. Whatever. You guys are not intrested in it anyway. Lols! I'll tell him myself. Chey! Hahahs! Hope you people who i dedicate the messages to reads it. And khamarul, i don't know what to type for you. Eh.. Let's just say i love you and red! And your piercing, it's damn cool . But you got balls to pierce it man! Ohmygod. You're a good friend too. I love you too! (:

byebye, tata! ((:

sweeth

randoms

2010-06-26T01:26:00.001+08:00

1. I just reaslise that i'm chatting quite a lot with my primary schoolmate, thomas, on facebook. Hahahs! I seriously have never ever talked to him before except for hello when we see each other when i go back to primary school. Lols! He's friendly! Yeah! Hahahs!

2. I wish i am drunk..

3. School's starting on monday people! Let's start afresh! Yeah! Agree? Anyone??

4. I just watched a few peter chao/chou videos. He's total crazy man. But i can't deny that he's funny. I've been laughing at his videos all along as long as i started watching the videos. You rock! Lols!

5. Yuxin, i love you(: stay strong! I'll always be here for you! I love you!

6. Winnie, let's go shopping more soon. Dresses? I don't know. I love shopping with you. Cause chiobu beside me. I love you(: Teehee..

7. Rachel, remember tell me what you mean on my tagboard. And that guy. Who is he, huh huh huh??? Curious.. Lalala~ i love you(:

8. -.-

9. Facebook got one ex couple de guy keep complaining. Fuck! Shut dhup! You're not the only one who get's hurt in this world. This is life, reality life ok?!

10. I think fired from home econ. Whatever. I don't have the time and energy to face mdm aishah and tell her reasons.. Sorry..

11. Can i don't have cca?

12. Poly! Aim aim aim!

13. Boyf, topup lahs! As in asap! Try! Haiis..

14. \m/ peter chou/chao

15. I miss too much people. Mm.. Girlfs, boyf, chong, marc, family, primary school friends. When was the last time i had a new outside friend? Haiis...

16. Don't stress me out, mom/dad. I love you both. But stop doing things that you think are good for me but they actually aren't. Cause i know what's right for me, what's wrong for me.

17. I feel like buying *********.

18. Avril lavigne, she's my idol! She totally rule! Hello?! She have her own label - Abby Dawn. And her own brand perfume - Black Star, coming up - Forbidden Love. I think?

19. I'm waiting for shinee's comeback stage.

20. Boyf decided to study?! He even registered for tuition? Not that i don't trust him. But, dear, are you kidding me or something? Whatever. I'll support you. We study together. Although my studies also not that good. Whatever! We work hard together! Girlfs too!

21. Get good grades soon! Work hard! Hwaiting!

randoms

2010-06-26T01:26:00.000+08:00

Oh...

2010-06-25T18:09:00.002+08:00

I just realised that my blogskin is.. common? What the heck. I can't find a unique or little people use de blogskin. Maybe i should create one my own.. Haiiss.. Lazy also.. Wahlao...

I'm bored...

I'm still bored...

-.-

Can i complain?

2010-06-22T23:28:00.002+08:00

I have this sudden feeling to complain. Mmm.. One thing that keeps stuck in my head - to someone : ' Well done! You succeed in por my friend. Well done! Let me give you one tight slap in the face for prize! (: And one more thing. Congrats! You're reaching my blacklist! Woo! Goodluck in being my blacklist's crown place. And FUCK YOU _|_! Thankyou(: '

Another thing. No offence first. Yuxin, can you like reply my msg? Or at the least faster. I know sometimes you see the msg then after that you leave your phone one side after seeing the msg. Next time reply me first lehs... I don't really like waiting for replies.. Sorry. And this holiday, ever since ncc camp, i no see you already. Why you don't want come out. It seems like i ask you out you no come out sia. Kinda a bit piss off.. I don't know what's your reason why you can't come out at times. I don't want to know also, for like now. Whatever the reason is, it better be reasonable sia.. I now not like what lahs.. But then like, ahlah.. Whatever. Nevermind, i love you(:

one good thing : winnie! I love you! Teehee!

Sentosa ~

2010-06-22T23:26:00.002+08:00

Today went to Sentosa to celebrate Steve, Zhengxiang and Zherong's birthday. Hahahs! And guess what? I'm the only girl. Wtf. Whatever, quite fun anyway. Got sunburns and my face is very red. Omfg! Woo! Got a bit itchy also. What the hell.. Girlfs, why don't want go.. Wahlao.. Happy birthday! Lmao

oh my gordddd ~

2010-06-19T16:28:00.002+08:00

Ah lah... So long no post. Currently at sammie's house. Wahhahahs! Quite bored though. Teehee. In the morning meet up with tada first. But only fr a while. Haiiyah.. Sorry tada... hahahs! Then rachel called to say she and yuxin saw tada at jurong point. She wanted me to get down the bus to find them. Lmao! Eh, missy. You think i drive the bus or i own the bus arh? Hahahs! LOL. Hey, and my dearest girlf, yuxin, rachel and winnie. But this time without winnie. Sorry. But you can tag along also? I think? Hahhas. Ehh.. Where are we gonna do our combine humanities? LOL. Quickly decide. Before my mom keeps asking me again. Naggy woman. Hahahas!

Another different matter :

Mom told me that don't anyhow write stuffs in my blog. Like what i'm unhappy with. Major priority. She said. Because there are people reading my blog and obviously i don't know who are those people. As in those people maybe my relatives or something but i don't know that they come my blog and tell my mom or my aunt or other people bout it. Eh... So FYI, if you're my relative, see my blog don't say out. Please. Thankyou(: somehow although this is a public online diary, still, please respect me. I don't intend to put private because i trust you people out there. So, do me a favour alright? Thankyou ^^

13 may - 13 june

2010-06-13T19:06:00.002+08:00

Happy 1 month! Although it's 1 month, but we two didn't meet up. Don't know why, LOL. Teehee. Still happy 1 month MR!

Whatever.

2010-05-30T21:54:00.002+08:00

Whatever. I don't care. I tried my best. And I've no patience. I can understand that you can't text me. But call? Ok, it may be troublesome for you. But if you bother, if you care, you would call. And somemore i'm asking you something. I'm asking if i can meet up with you tomorrow since you have a upcoming ncc camp and i'm going to Malaysia for a few days. We can't contact for that situation. But you didn't bother to tell me if you're free or not. I can call you. But the problem is you can't receive call. And you don't have a house phone. So what can i do? I reminded you to call me yesterday. Once before i sleep. Second time when i going to sleep. And what? You forgot or you don't bother? You know how much i miss you. And what i get from you is ignorance?! I run out of patience and whatever i need to give you. I don't know what to do already! I'm totally fucked up! What the hell is this?!

What i want is able to contact you. For example - what happened to you. I want to know what happened to you. Ok, you did tell me what happened in the end. But it's only when i tell you that need to understand you. Everything that you didn't do, i'll have to tell you? You can't expect me to do that right? Worst of all, i don't understand you. I don't know you. ' Who are you? ' - i could have asked you that dear. We have such little talkings. How am i suppose to know you better? You know how hard it is for me? I know i have wrongs too. I'm always with girlfs or my friends. And i don't go out with you. I'm really sorry bout that. Really really sorry. That's why i decided to meet up with you. And i initiated it. For the first time ever. And what i get? No reply at all. For AT ALL! You know how much i miss you and yet...

Whatever. I've did what i can. If that's what i get, forget it. I don't think there's anything i can anymore in this relationship.

100th post(:

2010-05-30T21:53:00.002+08:00

It's my 100th post(: Whatever.

byebye hello baby):

2010-05-30T17:57:00.003+08:00

I know i'm slow. But i just watched finish hello baby. Super sad. Yoogeunnie, miss you manymany(:
I'll miss Minho appa, keyy appa, onewiie appa, taeminnie appa and of course, jonghyunnie appa. Yoogeun, grow up well alright! Don't forget your Shinee appa(: We love you. Mehrong, poppo! :*

2010-05-29T15:54:00.002+08:00

I miss you terrible-ly

You! Quickly appear in front of me! I'm shouting out to you! But why didn't you appear?

Haiieees...

Translation Nothing Better by brown eye soul

It always appeared before me
Your face, I remember
My heart that stopped short
You spitefully took my disfunctional heart
And with your bright smile
That's how you easily opened my heart

It's true, that is how I became your man
All my unpleasant memories, I no longer recall
Because the hand that holds me tight
is as warm as spring

And now like a dream my heart
has gradually stopped by your side
Without awakening for a single moment,
I dream an endless dream

And now like breathing,
if you were to always rest by my side
if you were to always remain this way
nothing better nothing better than you
nothing better nothing better than you

And now like a dream, My heart
in your embrace, is held still
Without awakening for a single moment,
I dream an endless dream

And now like breathing,
if you were to always rest by my side
if you were to always remain this way
nothing better nothing better than you
nothing better nothing better than you

nothing better nothing better than you

> This song is a korean song by brown eye soul. It's smoothing and comfortable. You people out there can go and listen to it. The lyrics are translated from the song.

I'm glad(:

2010-05-29T15:28:00.002+08:00

What can i say? I'm hapy when i see my blog today. My three girlfs tagged my blog! All three! (: Thankyou girlfs. What can i do without you girls.

@ yuxin : Ok. I trust your words darling(:

@ winnie : Me too! high five! soon! We'll go there soon babe!

@ rachel : I trust you too honey (:

My girls! I love you! Specially for you three! Highly reserved number one seat in my heart for you three. I trust you babes!

My sixth sense

2010-05-27T23:29:00.003+08:00

I'm not really happy now. Currently 27 may 2010, 11.33pm. I'm not happy. Not a whole bit but a little bit. I said you'll be calling. I waited till now. Where's your call? You look angry and sad today. Even Yuxin can tell by looking. I asked you what happened. You said nothing and you're tired of answering it. Then do i look like i'm not tired asking you the same old question over and over again? You had called me every night. Till around 23 may 2010. I don't know why. I didn't asked you for the reason and you didn't even bother to tell. Fine. Then the day when you went to one of your family member's funneral. I didn't know. I texted you. You didn't reply. I called you. You didn't answer. I know you can't reply my text or answer my call. But don't your parents have a phone? I asked you why didn't you use your parents phone. You said because you were at the funneral. Then fine. When you've reached home, why didn't you bother to call me? I wondered if you were really at the funneral. I wondered if anything had happened to you. I was worried. But the only thing you can tell me the next day when i see you is, sorry. Whatever. Ever since you've stopped calling me, do you know what i done? I waited for your call everyday. I off my phone's silent mode. I didn't dare to go to sleep. I was afraid that you'll call but i am asleep. I was hoping for so much and long that you'll call. I always waited till i've fallen asleep without realising. You know how tired i was? I don't think so. Today, same thing. I'm wait. I waited. I'm waiting. Still? No call? What's this? My eyes are so tired and they're painful now. It's closing soon. But i still want to wait. What's the point right? He wouldn't be calling. It's so clear. It's gonna struck 12 soon. How could he be calling? I'm just might as well be waiting for Singapore to snow, for pigs to fly. How can i go on like this? How long can i go on? 1 month.. It's gonna be a long 1 month holiday for us. And it's 17 more days to our 1 month anniversary. Will we end before our 1st month? The gap between us are starting to widen. My sixth sense is telling me that, something's wrong. Not only the problem is bout me. But you too. What's going on in the life of you that i'm not aware of? What's the thing that you're hiding? I can't understand you. If you're not gonna tell me what you're thinking, how am i suppose to know? I'm not telepathic.. I hope my sixth sense won't be so accurate

2010-05-26T21:40:00.002+08:00

I love Freedom!

It may not be any significants to you. But to me it's more than you imagine.

I love freedom more than anything. More than adat, my three other babes,

FAMILY or even LOVERS. Freedom is might as well be my husband. To me,

i would give up anything for it. If i get any chance to have it, i would grab

hold of it real tightly. I can give up almost anything for it. I'v always been

limited. Curfew, no this no that, do this do that a MUST and blah blah

whatever. Limitation is not for me. It's not me. I'm not the type who like to

be tied down or commanded on. So don't try. I like to do somethings in my

own way. And thats,

FREEDOM

220510,

2010-05-22T23:25:00.002+08:00

It's saturday. Early in the morning around 9 plus, Mom called my phone and asked if i wanted to go East Coast Park. I was like ok(: She went to the market and just came back home - downstairs. Then i just remembered, he's going to NDP training at 9 -.- And somemore ending at 6pm. 9am to 6pm people! Goodtheluck! LOL.

Aunt, Uncle, Yaoyu jie, Yanshan kor, grandma and mom. Erm... Didn't do much anyway. Just wak here walk there, run here run there, jump here jump there, cam here cam there. Sounds like a lot, but it isn't. I love the sea breeze!!! It's damn cooling. Anyone wanna go there with me soon?? Hahahs!

So there isn't much anyway today.

Oh! I tried putting mask for the first time. At my aunt house. Basic logic, you're not allowed to laugh when you put a mask. Cause will cause wrinkles. When my dad took a picture of me putting on the mask, I can't help but laugh. Ugly freak! Hahahs! But it's very nice. Cooling(:

No Peace at all -.-

2010-05-20T21:42:00.002+08:00

Even if my mom's not at home, there's still no peace. Seriously, I'm not gonna care bout my sister anymore. Wrong! She's not my sister. She's my enemy. My friends say that she's still small and i must bear with her. My parents say i only have one sister, treasure. Erm.. People, why don't you go tell those to my her? Obviously, i won't be as IRRITATING, NONSENSICAL, DISRESPECTFUL, DISGUSTING AND HATEFUL(: Why is it that i must always bear with her? I don't see a reason why i should. This is going to be the last time that i'm letting her. After this, if i ever let her go on her way, i'm not human. I'm a fucking no brain idiot! She think she bang the door until fucking loud i'll be scared. LIKE I CARE!!! I won't talk to her either. LIKE EVER?!! FUCKING DOG FACE. KAOBEI ONLY. COME IN MY LIFE COME GUAILAN ME ONE ISIT?! OR IN MY PAST LIFE I GOT KILL YOUR WHOLE GOD DAMN FAMILY?! DID I OWE YOU A WHOLE FORTUNE? FUCKER!

* I DISOWN YOU! *

You're not sorry

2010-05-18T11:53:00.000+08:00

All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again
But not this time around
You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can say that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, no, no
Looking so innocent
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before
But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade
So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
No, oh, no, oh, no oh
Whoa, no, no

Reply of tags

2010-05-18T11:49:00.002+08:00

Rahcel : LOL. Ok lahs... Hahahs!
Zhi sian : My MYE long ago and well.. it wasn't that bad. Hahahs
Winnie : Alright! Pray for you(:
Mr you know you know : Yah lah yah lah... -.-
Winnie : Just swim lahs. At least play with water. Aiyo... Don't worry! I'll save you or maybe rachel would? Hahahs!
Yuxin : YAH! Especially you. You must come! LOL
Coffee : Your 'name' sound like a cat name -.- And i don't know what's your marks. LOL

Cancer... I hate you..

2010-05-16T22:13:00.002+08:00

I just recently know that there's this guy from our school who have cancer. Name - daniel. I don't know who is he. But heard that he have cancer? ( correct me if i'm wrong ). I felt sad for him. I think he kinda passed away? I don't know. If he did, i'm seriously sad bout it. I mean though i don't know who is he, but i can't help it. I once have this really really great tuition teacher. She's more than a tuition teacher. There's one thing i really regretted that i did to her. I had this one lesson with her at night. And it's on weekdays. I'm damn freaking tired and yet i'm having tuition with her. It's a group teaching btw. She was going through a science/math topic with us. And i can't get a freaking thing in my head. I only knew i am super tired and i just want to get home to sleep. She told us to write down our correction. But i didn't. When she ask me whether i wrote it, i lied, i said yes. She checked, there wasn't even a single letter. She ask me why i didn't write it down. I just gave her a irritated face. She say she want to talk to me after the tuition, i was like fine! She talked to me. I cried. I cried because i know i did wrong. I was so senseless then. Why didn't i think that i've studied the whole day, i'm tired but she teached for the whole day, isn't she tired too? At least i had a few hours of break. She doesn't. She never ever rest.She doesn't rest. I guess that's why she became too tired. Tired till it led to cancer. She passed away around 2 years agao. Near 3 i think. I miss her so so so much. I want her to teach me again. Not only in studies in life too. She taught me more than i can ever discover. She's just more than a teacher... I miss her so so much..

140510,

2010-05-15T17:20:00.002+08:00

Yesterday after school went to Rachel house. Too bad yuxin can't come. Will have another gossip girls party time again. And of course to : Yuxin, Rachel, Winnie and me, Lets vow that we'll all be present for the next party time we're gonna have. Alright?! YES! I vow first!
Anyway, we wen to rachel house and stayed in her room first cause it's raining outside. Winnie and rachel kinda became sian and it seems like i'm the only person who still stay entu bout the whole 'party'. LOL. After the rain, we went to the gym. The gym, not bad man! The mirror is the best thing in the gym. Big and nice reflection. Hahahs! Rachel and i started out on the trackmile. Then rachle paused for her catwalk on the trackmile. Winnie was the 'bike' singing and dancing to herself. Hhahahas. Took pictures and we stopped with the workout and started dancing. I remembered that there was a camera in the gym but got carried away with the fun and forgot bout it. Guess what? After that when we finish with gym, we went to the mini mart. The security counter was ust next to it. And the security told rachel : ' you're friend dance very nice ' WTF. We kinda did other things too. God! Hahahhas! Then rahcel and i went swimming. Stupid winnie become the photographer. Eeish! Winnie : next time swim with us lahs! LOL.

So that's almost bout everything. Hahahs! Got home and get scolded - late home. Teehee..

Do i have a sister, ever?

2010-05-15T12:46:00.002+08:00

There's this someone in my house. And that someone somehow got the same surname as me : chee yanjing. My parents and the others says she's m younger sister. But why isit that whatever she does isn't like me and moreover, like some god damned assholes doings? Either i am being picked up from the rubbish bin or her. I think it's her. Cause i look super like my mother and she doesn't look like anything of my dad and mom. So i think it's her. No wonder. Her face, her attitude, her crying face, her doings, her temper, her voice, everything of her just makes me wanna puke. I've never ever seen such disgusting people like her. I did hate a few people somewhat like her. But to me, she's more the like ' boss ' of the people i hate. Cause she's so so so so so so much more worst than them. Aww... So sad that there's this kind of people living in this world. I thought i was the only one who should die to make the world a better place. But i think i'll give that glory to her (:

MAHA!

2010-05-15T10:33:00.002+08:00

Mid year exam is over and i've gotten my results except for english and DnT. I bet i failed english anyway. It seems like many people are saying that with the 2 NA class both added together, there's only 14 passes. Kinda cannot be. But the paper is difficult anyway. Whatever. Just gonna buck up(: For my results, i'm happy with it. For like seriously! When was the last time i was ever happy with my results?! Years ago i guess? Here's my results :

Math : 45/100 ( 5 more marks man! )

Science - Chemistry + Physics : 50/100 ( lucky -.- )

Combine humanities - Social + history : 41/60 ( can you believe it?! I actually pass my humanities first time ever and with flying colours somemore ! )

Chinese - 70.5/100 ( if i no count wrong )

This are the results i've gotten. No bad! Currently only know that my math fail. God damn happy! Woohoo!!!

:D

2010-05-13T21:40:00.002+08:00

it's the day(:

:D

2010-05-13T21:40:00.001+08:00

it's the day(:

2010-05-11T18:56:00.002+08:00

It's hard to fake a smile. It's hard to bear with the tears. It's hard to bear with everything. But i just hope it isn't hard for you to figure it out, that i'm trying to bear everything out. Because you're in front of me. Because i don't want you to worry if i'm not happy or wanting to cry. But it's just too hard..

If i shout out to you, would you be there? If i yearn for you, would you pop of nowhere and be there for me? If i needed a shoulder, would you be there to lend me yours?

Fuck lah hoh!

2010-05-11T18:53:00.002+08:00

The title is just random people. LOL. I just suddenly remind of it. Winnie : Guess what? I downloaded seoul fm. TEEHEE! Happy. Now listening to it. Later going let it fit with studying.

People! Tahan! Tomorrow is the last day! I'm super looking forward to tomorrow. Lalalala~ I'm gonna love tomorrow, I think? :D Everybody. Tomorrow!

(:

2010-05-10T21:28:00.001+08:00

(((: It's monday and i needa wake up early for math exam -.- that's right, having exams has resulted me not able to post much lately.. The previous post was when i'm at winnie's house:D. Now i'm using mobile. So it's kinda troublesome.. Anyway, this post is actually a confession post :
- they say : ' when you're young, you may be ugly. But when you grow up, you'll be handsome/pretty. ' what i'm gonna tell you is : you'll be pretty when you grow up(:
- my new eye candy : YXn. He's handsome man
- i wanna call you baby? (REALLY?!)
- ' be happy~ ' our quote, xoxo
- i'm love-ing you more now(:
- i don't regret knowing shinee and being a fan of them(: i'm turning hardcore xP
- i'm gonna start shinee's collectables ; for like anything.
- i love jongkey, many many. Maybe i'll name my first kid jongkey in the future :P (sound like donkey, but i love it!)
- i love the sun and suns?hine a lot but singapore, you're just too hot to be true ~
- you just did something to make me dislike you by 2%(: don't try again or it'll increase bastard !
- i'm gonna fail math and i deserve it..
- i'm missing you now :O

(:

2010-05-10T21:28:00.000+08:00

It's just two more day! ..

2010-05-10T15:17:00.005+08:00

It's just two more days! Which means after exam and yeah... For people who know, you'll get what i mean.. It's good that exams will be over! It's suppose to be a great thing for me. And the thing that's gonna be happen. Ok, it's as if i'm engaged. ( what?! ) Anyway, for my clostest friends, you know why i don't like it. Don't know? Can ask me:/ I do love him. But that doesn't mean you know you know.

2010-05-07T23:39:00.001+08:00

i need serious shopping ! My closet looks so bare man... Shall start saving! Must must must. Ok, i plan far. All the way to my birthday. LOL. It wasn't a pleasant birthday celebration last year so. My planning - go shopping my deareast : yuxin, rachel, winnie, maisarah. Then maybe night outing with : the girls above, chong, marc, salik, rule, jh, wz, steve, kw, zx, zr, adat. Yahs... I think this people? I think. This year i wanna celebrate with dearest lovers. Sammie! We'll go out together maybe before or after my birthday. Alright sweetheart? Hhahahahas. Love you guys. I want shopping! I need shoppinng! DESPRATELY!!!!

2010-05-07T23:39:00.000+08:00

2010-05-07T23:32:00.002+08:00

i can see a spot of pimple from the pic
(: i love you boy...

24 april

2010-05-01T21:46:00.002+08:00

24 april.. This date just keeps popping out in my head now. Not on purpose, but it just pops up in my mind suddenly.. I'm not suppose to think of it. Thinking of it makes me feel guilty towards him. I feel so sorry. Because of this and someone else.. I can't help but feel guilty. Because of this two, i can't face him. I can't start. I'm not ready. I'm sorry... But still i'm glad i was honest. I'm just happy we're ok. I'm just happy we're still happy. I'm happy for how we're now. To be honest, if we're to take a step further, i don't think i can.. Haiis....

2010-04-25T20:20:00.001+08:00

I love Aunty lucy!

So embarrasing!!

Not i say one. Is other people tell me one!!

*flip hair*

What am i gonna do today?

2010-04-25T14:24:00.001+08:00

what should i do today? Erm.. like i told chong? Study, sleep. wake up then do the same thing over and over again until It's time to go to bed for tomorrow school. Hhahahhas! Ok, insane. I'm totally not prepared for MYE.And it's coming up thursday. How? Die lohs. Wahlao... Eeish... I just can't get all the things in my head. I can get some. But the others lehs? How? Soemone tell me lahs... Haiis.. Total stressness

Is this for real?

2010-04-24T23:59:00.002+08:00

What had happened between you and me just seem like a fairytale. To me, i'm still doubting you.. You're liking me for the sake of liking me or just because someone says you need someone to be with you, to be there for you, to entertain you. So which is it? If you're liking me for the sake of liking me, then i appreciate that a lot a lot. As if you're liking me because someone says you need a person to be with you, then i'd rather you don't. I would rather prefer the feelings i had for you like a friend then now. I've been wondering this for a very long time. Thinking of it just makes me wonder a lot and feel like crying. Currently, i'm not able to bug you off my mind. Not now. But if i know the answer, i would be able to to get over you.

' Fate comes one round and be gone after the race '

I'm not worthy girl. I'm not worthy for anything.

I'm not a good girl. I'm more than you ever think.

You can't change me. I won't change for you.

I'll hold on if you do the same. If not, then go on, i won't say anything.

One doubt in me. Is your feelings true towards me?

2010-04-23T19:12:00.003+08:00

dear sweetest,
i would like to talk about my dearest peoples. Firstly, this are my important people : dearest bff yuxin, top rated retarded rachel, hardcore key winnie, huh alot marcus, total brainless chong, maniac red ahrule, super long leg salik, miss novels maisarah, ahdai weizheng, fan of n jiahong, useless zherong, very small steve, very into yoona kokwooi, sweetheart sammie, super pig sebas and my special someone, mr A.

2010-04-21T19:34:00.000+08:00

I miss him

2010-04-20T21:09:00.001+08:00

love story? Now? Ok... Not really. Kinda complicated. Gonna start? I don't know?! Eeish...

Studies. It's gonna be mid year. Mugmugmug!!! Aiish...

Friends. I love all of you. Thanks for being there for me:D

2010-04-20T21:09:00.000+08:00

2010-04-20T13:10:00.001+08:00

Total sadness

He's just not the one..

2010-04-18T19:45:00.003+08:00

If you're seeing this post, IF, then this is specially for you MR.

Everytime i tell my friends about the bad love i have with you. You're the bad guy. My friends thinks you're a jerk. But your not. However bad you are, however much my friends talk bad about you, you're not a jerk. I still think i've no fault. I've always been blaming you. And still i think it's your fault. Always, forever. It'll always be your fault. But still, you're not a jerk. You ruined everything that i've given my best for you. But you're still not a jerk. For whatever bad you've done, you'll never be a jerk to me. Never ever. You're just not the right guy for me...

LILO AND STITCH!

It's gonna be MYE

2010-04-18T18:52:00.002+08:00

MYE coming.. Mymy.. It's just a blink of an eye. We're in april and we're gonna have over MYE soon, as in very very very very soon. God.. Dead slacker me also will rise from coffin to study lahs~ LOL. Must study lahs... Then get good marks. Make daddy shock until his specs one big crack, and mom jump in the sofa like a mad woman. Must strive hard! Hwaiting everybody! Jiayou! Goodluck! HA! LOL.

Goodluck ~

Annyeong pussycat! ^^

I'm crazy

2010-04-18T18:49:00.001+08:00

I'm crazy.

SERIOUSLY!

ohmymegod.. Freak hell, i'm crazy crazy crazy crazy. Cannot. Must stop. It's totally out of logic. No! Must stop!

STOPPP!!!

imma lucky and happy

2010-04-14T19:37:00.005+08:00

Dear readers,
i'm so lucky. I got sick today. Having a fever, sore throat. I keep coughing and feel like vomiting. Lucky ain't i? It's in the sense that i get sick now and better than having it during 2 weeks more. It's gonna be mid year exam... Haiis... I'm dying!! 2nd thing is that, guess what? I've got eye candy's phone number!! Hahahahs! Happy happy!! He called just to tell me he had low prepaid. Sweet aye? Hahahs! Bling bling eye candy. Indeed eye candy man. It's because of his eyes. BLing bling cute big eyes. Hahahhas!!? Ok. Done. Needa sleep. Dying soon .

2010-04-12T21:28:00.000+08:00

I'm happy ^^

I heartzxzxz Jonghyun:D

Heartzxzzx!!

Ohmygod!! Very happy ^^

sae chum ka ha mi da :D

2010-04-08T19:25:00.003+08:00

happy birthday jonghyun. Ohmygod! Though it's not my birthday, but i'm super super happy. Hahahahas!!!
i don't know if i've spell wrongly but still :
sae chum ka ha mi da
sae chum ka ha mi da
sarang eh jonghyun e oppa
sae chum ka ha mi da

hugs and kisses!!! Hahahas!
Sarang hae yo jong jong baby.
Eeww... I'm getting more and more disgusting. Hahaahs

we're ties.

2010-04-07T21:56:00.001+08:00

i'm fine with her now. I just hope she won't ever be a hypocrite ever again. I don't wanna hate her also. We'll be classmate for like the next three years lehs. I'm not so free and energetic to hate her for so long.

2010-04-06T12:31:00.002+08:00

Jason Derülo. Deluga Heights.
J. J. J. J. J. R.
Come on.

Everybody’s looking for love. Oh. Oh.
Ain’t that the reason you’re at this club. Oh. Oh.
You ain’t gonna find these things with him. No. Oh.
Got a better solution for you girl. Oh. Oh.
Just stay with me now. Say the word and we’ll go.
I’ll be your teacher. I’ll show you the ropes.
You’ll see a side of love you’ve never known.
I can see it going down, going down.

In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.
You’ll be screaming more.
In my head, it’s going down.
In my head, it’s going down.
In my head. Yeah. In my head. Oh yeah.

I’m gonna do all the right things to serve.
When it comes down to it, it’s all just a game.
Instead of talking let me demonstrate. Yeah.
Get down to business lets. Get. Ball. Play.
Just stay with me now. Say the word and we’ll go.
I’ll be your teacher. I’ll show you the ropes.
You’ll see a side of love you’ve never known.
I can see it going down, going down.

In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.You’ll be screaming more.
In my head, it’s going down.
In my head, it’s going down.
In my head. Break it down. Ay-oh. Come on. Ay-oh. Ay-oh.

You singing to me baby in my head right now. Ay-oh. Ay-oh. Come on.
She’ll be screaming out when it all goes down.
Just stay with me now. Say the word and we’ll go. We can go.
I’ll be your teacher. I’ll show you the ropes.
You’ll see a side of love you’ve never known.
I can see it going down, going down.

In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.You’ll be screaming more.
In my head, it’s going down.
In my head, it’s going down.
In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.You’ll be screaming more.
In my head, it’s going down.
In my head, it’s going down.
In my head.

In my head.

2010-04-06T12:17:00.002+08:00

Having DnT lesson now. What do i have today...
Oh, rach keeps going on and on bout her E and her loser. God.. She's becoming a sicko. Today morning, when she came to school, she saw E and she was laughing all the way to school ever since. Miss sicko. Hahahs.
Today morning, saw chong. Hahaahahs. He had to go to 'sao mu' - i don't know what's that in english, sorry. Hahahs. So, we meet at my house downstairs. I hasn't even wait for the bus to reach, then he go and left me alone. Asshole. Hahahhs.
What's next? Mmm... Yahs, one thing. Family is so close yet so far. Though thet're just a arm length away from me and i could just touch them within my reach, but what's the use. Family feels so far apart, except for the guys. I don't know if yu xin feel too, i think yes? Hahahas. Nevermind. Just wanna cherish what i have now.. :)
Eye candy eye candy!! I can go on saying that for like the whole day??!
Went to blogshops and spot for korean clothings. It's very nice. Very, i'm serious. LOL. What can i say Imma hardcore korean fan. HAHAHS! People out there who are anti-korean-fans, i'm sorry, I'm hardcore now. Teehee..
In my head.. I've been listening to this song for almost the whole 2 period of DnT?! It's damn addictive. Ever since i listen to it when i watched KBS world, K-chart at music bank. Brain and jason derulo was singing the song together. Bravo for brain! He's english is BRA-A-Vo! Hahahas!
Worst part ever :
Today had 2.4 run. Run until can go die. Started the first round quite smoothly, not really panting. Then second round, started to walk, a bit. Ok, maybe not a bit. i started walking a lot. LOL. Then third round. Started running again, and guess what? Stitch struck me =.= Then Almost finish, sprint ( don't know how to spell lahs!! ) Then got 20. There were 32 people. So, guess it's not a good placing? Hahahas.
Hypocrite bitch is here today. I wrote 2 piece of paper telling her yesterday. Today saw her only, i kept rubbign my eye. Damn itchy. Maybe is because i saw her? I don't know. She's just a natural pollution to me. Hypocrite slut. Quit faking lahs. FAKER!

Blog..

2010-04-06T12:15:00.003+08:00

I've used blog for years, though i don't remember how long or whether it's as long as i think it is. But still blog has really been so close to me. Not for current year. Had been busy and lazy to post. So should i stop blogging? Any suggestion. I still heart blog a lot, but imma lazy pig. LOL. Haiis... Blog arh blog...

New phone:D

2010-04-04T22:31:00.002+08:00

I've got a new phone! From dad though. Hahahs! Nokia E71. Nice, quite. Hahahs! Better than my previous phone lohs. This at least have 4 gb. Happy happy^^ ~ ( channel u got handsome guy :O ) LOL. But his pants his damn bright - red =.= Rule's fave. :DD Ok, nothing much actually. Just came back from malaysia. When i was at malaysia, i got news that the god damn guy had a new girlf, EXPCTED, TOTALLY! Thanks so much for ruining my life and lie to yourself you still love your ex. I don't really believe in that. How? Mr, would you liek to tell me, what do you want from me? One side you say you love your ex, the other side you say you have a girlf. Wow, 2 face obvious. Mask man, do an explanation, you owe me. Crap!

Know what? Just tell me what you want lahs. Stop trying to do so many things. You don't love your ex. You're either acting or feeling guilty. I don't know. That's my thoughts. That's that. I've enough hearing only bad news from you to me. Whatever.

love story of the 3 fools

2010-04-03T20:15:00.002+08:00

Once upon a time, there were 3 fools - two girls one guy. Two girls : M and R. Guy : S. R and S used to have a sweet love story until something happened, their love story ended tragically and not very glamorous. Well, the reason? That's for them to think just what was it about. ( Anybody who know the reason please call : My hotline. Ok, LAME! ) M and R, i think, I had never been good together. She hate her, her hate she. They're like fire and water. She bomb her, her bomb she. Get it? Loggerheads lahs! LOL. Then M started going out with S. They were so close. They're just unofficials who look like officials. I don't care?! R still love S a lot. S knows that. But does S still love R? I don't know?! Does S really love M? I said i don't know?! M thinks that R is flirting with S. Did R really flirt with S? I don't care?! Did R really dumped S? I think so. Did R hate M behind her back?! I don't know?!. If yes, fight lahs! LOL. And lastly, M, have you misunderstanded R? I bet at least got 1 thing have.

Moral of story :
1. S, please state clearly whether still love R.
If no, please tell her.
If yes, please go bang your head against the wall, oink 3 times, slap yourself 5 times and go
tell the truth to M and R.

2. S, please think properly of who you really love.

3. R, are you flirting S?
To avoid people thinking it's yes,
- Don't touch him.
If no, then great.

4. R, did you really dumped S?
If yes, then it's your fault.
If no, then you're not wanted.

5. R, you got hate M behind her back or not?
If yes, please stop that, it's fake.
If no, then tell M straight in the face

6. M, are you sure you don't have misunderstand R?
If yes, please say sorry to her
If no, then good.

My opinion ( i know nobody want to know, but i still want say ; I DONT CARE~~~ )
Ok, please freaking hell get the most basic things above right first. M and R, hate each other, then talk it out lahs. Otherwise fight lohs. For like serious sake, what's so great about a guy? You two are stron enough to be on your own. You guys before that already don't like each other, then now hate each other even more just because of a guy?! Ohmygod, this doesn't make sense. Got what thing not happy tell each other. Why you two dare yo say each other in your blog, but don't dare to say it infront of each other? You two is dumb or no brain? I don't you two are my friends or not already. Just talk it out. Whether there's tears or fights or screams or shouts or quarrels, whatsoever, just say everything out to each other. Don't only go pollute ownself blog bout this matter. And that S. Eh you! Do some bloody god damn thing ok?! You're between a girls war. If the reason of the break up is studies, then i can only say the person who use that excuse for breakup, you're even more stupid than a pig or a shit. No matter it is what major exams, before, after and during you two are still studying. Why only use that excuse when you're gonna have a major exam that will affect your life? Just because of this freaking exam, you two broke up? What for? Then after breaking up, you still like him/her. What for? Can only regret lohs. Whoever who stated this excuse, S or R, whoever! If R, you're the one who stated this excuse, then you're in the wrong lohs. I don't know is who lahs. ( if got anything wrong call my hotline, LOL )
Ok, done:D

2010-04-01T20:44:00.000+08:00

It's your chance take her hand to the floor
(fellas just the moment you've been waiting for)
Girl if you see something you like then let 'em know
(ladies i know your ready)
Cuz you only got one chance
(yeah yeah)
For your first dance
(you never forget bout your first dance)
So take advantage of the slow down
tell 'em JB)

When i close my eyes
And see me and you at the prom
We've both been waiting so long
For this day to come
Now that its here
Let's make it special

(I can't deny)
There's so many thoughts in my mind
The DJ's playing my favorite song
Ain't no chaperones
This could be the night of your dreams

Only if you give, give the first dance to me
Girl I promise I'll be gentle
But we gotta do it slowly
If you give, give the first dance to me
I'm gon' cherish every moment
'Cuz it only happens once, once in a lifetime

I couldn't ask for more
We're rocking back and forth
Under the disco ball
We're the only ones on the floor

(I can't deny)
There's so many thought in my mind
The DJ's playing my favorite song (favourite song)
Now we're all alone (all alone)
Here's the oppurtunity

Only if you give give the first dance to me
Girl I promise I'll be gentle
But we gotta do it slowly
If you give give the first dance to me
I'm gon' cherish every moment
Cuz it only happens once once in a lifetime

Everybody says that we look cute together
Let's make this a night the two of us remember
No teachers around to see us dancing close
I'm telling you our parents will never know
Before the lights go up
And the music turns off
That's the perfect time for me to taste your lip gloss
your glass slippers in my hand right here
We'll make it before the clock strikes nine

If you just give give the first dance to me
Girl I promise I'll be gentle
But we gotta do it slowly
If you give give the first dance to me
I'm gon' cherish every moment
Cuz it only happens once once in a lifetime

it's your chance take her hand to the floor (to the floor)
if you see something you like then let 'em know
cuz you only got one chance, for this first dance
so take advantage of this slow down
ya ya man.

If you give, give the first dance to me
I'm gon' cherish every moment
Cuz it only happens once, once in a lifetime

I'm happy ^^

2010-03-30T22:00:00.003+08:00

Simple day, simple plan, simple mind, simple happiness. That's what started my whole dance rehearsal for tomorrow's dance audition. I'm not actually suppose to me in there, but then who ask 3o lack of people. No lahs! Actually, i just wanna join in, it's fun ok?? Like total simple happiness that can make me happy through the whole day.

Ok. Today at 5? I think, i went to find winnie and ritchell first. Then went to the malay dance room to rehearsal. There was chong, Marc, winnie, ritchell, ivy and me. Ohmygod! Fun fun fun! We're like stretching and stretching. Personal teaching to become more flexible - * anyone need? 5 bucks per hour, it's worth it if you got a a body full of hard bones * Teehee.. Don't know is because they too hard or pack too hard, Marc and chong can't even do a body wave. Managed to try, but unsuccessful. Don't try to imagine it, you'll wanna vomit. Hahahs. Ohmygod, bad. Hahahas. But still they at least tries their best to dance. NOT LIKE SOME GUYS WHO DON'T EVEN WANNA TRY AND JUST FREAKING SIT THERE AND NOT EVEN HELPING IN ANYTHING, USELESS BUMS.. I mean for serious sake, at least you tried your best, nobody cares whether you're awful at it or not, but they're not even trying, they just see the dance steps and say : ' Wah.. Difficult sia ' Then gave up? Guys, get a life lahs. It's just dancing and it's super fun. Forget it, you guys won't get to see this anyway =.= WHATEVER...

Ok, Danced ring ding dong, Super love it. Then another song, forgot what's it's song title, but it's ok. Mmmm.. Tomorrow still need to last minute learn another two songs. Eeish.. Jiayou! Go 3o, go 3n. HEHEHs. It's very fun!!!

Rules for guys from girls

2010-03-23T12:47:00.002+08:00

Okay, I know there are a lot of these kind of groups, but some of them are rather pathetic and untrue. So I decided to make one myself, with possibly some help from others. :)So, girls, join this group if it's true. Guys, read this and join to prove you've read it. Seriously, it could help you. :)Here it goes, the list of what us (most)girls really like/want.

- We love hugs. No questions asked. Don't make it too short however, or pull away too quickly, we might take it the wrong way. And please, put some emotion into it. There's nothing worse than a blank hug.

- Hold our hand, even if it's for a second. Trust me, we love it.

- We love cute little compliments said out of the blue. It makes us feel noticed and good about ourselves. We may even remember it for a long time.

- We prefer being called things like beautiful, gorgeous, pretty or cute, rather than hot, fit and sexy.

- Don't act or treat us differently or ignore us around your friends. We will start to hate you for that. If they're your friends, you shouldn't be embarrassed or ashamed to be affectionate to us infront of them anyway. Get a grip.

- Never, ever, EVER lead us on! If one of us girls falls for you, that's it. We'll be in the palm of your hand, seriously. And it hurts. So don't do it! You'll break girls hearts and you'll get a bad reputation anyway. If you don't like us, don't flirt! Simple!

- Not all girls are slags, so don't treat us like one.

- We don't care how ugly you think you are when you smile, just do it. We love it.

- If a girl doesn't talk to you much, but always looks and/or smiles at you, she likes you. She's most likely just shy and/or scared incase you don't like her back.

- A girl WILL talk about you with her best girl friends. So be prepared. But don't worry, it will be good things, unless you do something terrible.

- DO NOT flirt with any other girl, seriously. Especially one of our best friends. Girls are jealous creatures, end of and we can't stand it. Really, just don't do it. It could lead to a break up.

- We love it when you talk about us to your friends, in a good way.

- We love it when you give us nicknames and create inside jokes with us. It's adorable.

- Most girls will be afraid or too shy to look you right in the eye for more than a few moments. That doesn't mean she doesn't like you. She DOES like you.

- If we randomly text/call you, we miss you. If we don't, we're probably scared incase we annoy you, like if you're busy or something.

- Guys are extremely confusing too, you know. So don't give us all this shit saying you don't understand us. We have a hard time too.

- If we look at your lips, we probably want you to kiss us, but are too shy to make the move ourselves.

- If we say we're cold, or we try to warm ourselves up somehow, that's probably a hint for you to hug us.

- If we look at you with a concerned expression, we're probably trying to figure out what you're thinking.

- Love doesn't equal money, so you don't need to dish out things to buy for us. Of course it's sweet to bring us a little something once in a while, but please just save your money. We don't need it.

- We like playing with your hair, and we love it when you play with ours, too.

- We really appreciate it if you attempt to cheer us up, even if it doesn't work. We will remember this for a long time.

- Please don't lie to us.

- Just because we're girls, that doesn't mean we're all very femine and girly. Of course we all love our girl-night-outs and shopping, but we can enjoy play fights and sports every once and a while. Just don't be too rough with us.

- We love it if you give us your jacket.

- We love it when you speak to us first, it shows you actually want to talk to us. Sometimes we worry we get annoying if we're always the first one to talk.

- Girls can be bitchy and stress out. Sure, you can try to help. But if we are really angry about something, we may accidently say something we don't mean to, so please back off whilst we calm down. We don't want to lose you.

- If we do something that annoys you, if you have to tell us, please do it in a nice way. Some of us can get really offended and lose self-esteem.

- Don't take advantage of us.

- Do not push us into anything we're not ready for. Just because a lot of girls are slags, does not mean we all are. We do not appreciate you trying to feel us up, thank you. Most of us aren't ready, so back off.

- Love does not equal sex.

- Girls ARE competitive. And most of us do not like losing! :P

- If we have fell for you, no matter how much you hurt us, we will never stop loving you. And we will not give up until we get you.

- Being naturally funny instantly makes you attractive.

- Most of us love being cheekily flirted with and teased, but don't mess us around. And do not do this to other girls if you do it to us too. We will be offended and feel used.

- Never ever ask a girl out for a joke. You have no idea how much this hurts. And it can put us off guys for a long time. So don't do it! If you do, you're a dick, simple.And there you have it!

There is a lot more, and we know it may seem like a lot, but really, us girls are easily pleased. Guys expect a lot too! So shut up. :) May add to this when some more come to mind. Thanks for reading! xSOME SIGNS THAT A GIRL LIKES YOUI thought I should add this, it might help :).

- She'll always be happy when your around. Even if she's upset, she won't be able to help but smile.

- You catch her looking at you. If she's shy, she might quickly look away, but she might remain eye contact with you for a few moments before looking away slowly.

- If a girl laughs at most things you say or do, she's most likely into you.

- If her friends smile, tease or look at the girl when you walk past.

- She seems to always be in the same place you are, even if it's just for a moment. She'll give any excuse to cross your path, for example, walking the same way as you wherever your both going.

- She'll play with her hair or keep adjusting her clothes whilst talking to you.

- Flirt with her, see if she flirts back. Most girls don't flirt as much to the guy they like. Slaggy girls tend to be the one to flirt more, they're probably not the right type for you. NOT ALL GIRLS WHO FLIRT A LOT ARE SLAGS. Just a note. :) Just be careful.

- Shy girls probably won't admitt that they like you unless you they know you like them back. So don't be put off if she doesn't say it.

I don't know why but i don't total agree with it for like all. I agree the ' Please don't lie to us ' the most. Total major agreement girls. Ok, bad news, i actually agree for the guys rule more than the girls. God. Check it out.. Oh i got this from facebook : A realistic list of what girls would like guys to know.

Here's what guys want

2010-03-23T12:44:00.002+08:00

1. Men are NOT mind readers. ( FIRST & FOREMOST RULE)

2. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

3. Sunday sports, It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be.

4. Crying is blackmail.

5. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it!

6. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.

7. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

8. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become Null and void after 7 Days.

9. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us.

10. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one

11. You can either ask us to do something Or tell us how you want it done. Not both. If you already know best how to do it , just do it yourself.

12. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials..

13. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.

14. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings. Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve=2 0is.

15. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that.

16. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer you don't want to hear.

17. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine... Really .

18. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as Football or Hockey.

19. You have enough clothes.

20. You have too many shoes.

21. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!

22. Thank you for reading this. Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight;

But did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.

Ok though i'mma girl, but i just total agree with it. God! I mean you don't expect guys to be telepathic. Think the other way round, if the guy wants you to know what he want, but he doesn't even say it, then you'll know meh? no right?! LOL
Oh yahs, got that from facebook : the 22 guy rules a girl should know.

I've changed..

2010-03-23T11:50:00.001+08:00

Tears don't work for me.. So don't cry to me. Jealousy? I don't go for those kind of lame things.

Forget it, i just hate you!

2010-03-23T11:45:00.002+08:00

Please lahs, can you don't be a pussy then go complain to other people. You dare then you scold back. I doubt you don't dare anyway. So you wait what?! Wait got many people pity you then come say i bully you isit? Then what? Cry? Eh, don't cry lehs. Don't pollute earth lehs. Earth dying liao sia. You think alot of people like you isit. Please lahs. Insult liao then say sorry. I slap you then i say sorry lahs. Say you, you not happy. Say back lahs! You think i don't dare physical action to you isit? If not for someone i would have done so for like long ago. ' Acid ', get outta my life lahs. See until you, i feel like i 'm gonna melt soon. Melt to death horribly. Get a life lahs.

2010-03-22T22:35:00.000+08:00

WTF!

2010-03-21T21:51:00.004+08:00

What's the hell wrong with the crazy fans sia? Broke in to their hotel room, peep on jonghyun when he's changing, touch jonghyun face?! I heard is all aim at jonghyun. Although jonghyun is a super nice guy, but then doesn't mean you crazy fans can do this kinda thing sia! Broke in their hotel room, are you a sicko? Peep at jonghyun? Ok, although i also want see jonghyun hotness but then doesn't mean you have to peep!!?? He's also total hotness with only his face, don't see his body! Touch his face?! Get your dirty hands of his face! Please lahs, don't make him kena pimple lehs. Ruin his image sia. What's wrong with this fans?! Jong was like whole day unhappy. Must make him unhappy then you crazy fans happy is it?! look what you've done. Hope jong won't hate singapore and will wanna come again. Otherwise, eh! The crazy fan or fans out there, you're so gonna die horribly _|_ Jong was not even smiling like he ever did lehs. During replay also no smile sia! Jojo also don't have!!! Ring ding dong even more don't have!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He always smile when he sings ring ding dong at the beginning. WTF! Eerr... Hate the fans. I hope is only one and is a girl. Easy to handle. Maha! No lahs, jk. But if then come again, and something happens again, the person better watch out. Jong's gonna slap you in the face, i think. LOL. DON'T THINK JONG IS A NICE GUY THEN DARE GO IRRITATE HIM. F***ER!!!

I'm very mad now >:( !!!

2010-03-21T20:29:00.000+08:00

Got a closer look at my newest idols :D

2010-03-19T22:27:00.002+08:00

For like the past two days, i got a closer look at my newest idols! Total cuteness and hotness. Irresistable. But still SHINee is still the best! Winnie, I'm a hardcore fan too ok? Just that lose to you by a little only. Hahahhas!!

Ok, coming first. C.N Blue. Seriously when i know the group is because after i watched a korea drama call you're beautiful. It's great show. Highly recommended. There's lee hongki from Ft island. Fans of Ft should watch! The show is like quite long ago ever since i watch all ep. Hahahs! Now then recommend. LOL. Anyway, there's one of the main character in the show, real name : Jung yong hwa. And yeap, it's because of him that's why i know C.N Blue:D Then after listening to their i'm a loner. Love yong hwa even more. Total hotness!

now the members :

Jung yong hwa - leader, vocal and guitar.

Lee jong hyun - guitar and vocal.

Kang min hyuk - drummer

Lee jung shin - bassist

my ranking for them ?

First - Jung yong hwa

Second - Kang min hyuk

Third - Lee jong hyun

Fourth - Lee jung shin

Maha!

Ok. The next group, Z.e a, also known as child of empire. Hahahas. Cute. Young too. They look young to me. Hhahahas. But seriously, when i saw their faces, they really look like some people.

There are 9 members. Here's the members name :

Ha min woo

Hwang kang hee

Jung hee chul

Moon jun young

Park hyung shik

Si wan

Kim tae hun

Kim dong jun

Kevin kim

I don't know but ha min woo just seems so familiar. Mmm... But see him will have Kim bum de feel. Hahahas! So cute! Hwang kang hee. Seriously, his eyes are like big as in BIG!! He's tan too. Hot plus cute! Jung hee chul, he looks like ryeowook. okok. Next next. Moon jun young, He looks like a younger version of yoochun from DBSK. Like identical! Total shock when i saw his face. I thought since when yoochun go join Z.e a. Hahahas. Park hyung shik gives me a very mature feel. But at the same time, he gives me a small boy feel also. Fushion? Hahahas. Okokok. Exciting one. Si wan. When i saw him, i immediately thought of key. He and key is brothers is it? I know no lahs. But then like super key feel lohs. Goodgood. Hahahas! Mmm.. Then kim tae hun next. No offence, he looks like a father already. But still got handsome. Hahahs. He's the mother of the group. Omma! LOL. Kim dong jun looks like a person from super junior. I forgot his name. A little like only. Hahahas. He looks very small size from a angle. Kevin kim. He's like another jaebeom in kpop lohs. Another b-boy. I don't know why. But when i see him, he just make me remind of Jaebeom. Hahahas.

Ok. This are the two groups that make me feel intrested in them. But shinee's the best. I don't care~ Hahahas

I don't know what to expect..

2010-03-06T21:37:00.002+08:00

Relationship isn't as easy as you think. Break and patch and break and patch ( you know who i'm talking about ), if you want to end it, then end it for the last time. If you can't end it, and can only everytime break then patch again, then don't break, bear with it. That's all.

Love isn't easy. Pity it, it's as pitiful as tragic, it's as fragile as glass.

Still like then go for it. Don't be scared to make history repeat. Don't scared that you'll get hurt. Just think about what will happen during the relationship. Or you'll regret. Of course it will hurt in the end. Who won't? But don't you think if you two are together without thinking much, isn't that a better way out?

It comes and goes quickly. Before it's blown away, catch it. It's always a second faster.

I've changed. Have you? I've changed so much. Just in one thing, it can tell me clearly. So don't expect much from me. You're not that great. I'm not too. No, i'm worst than you. So don't come to me. I don't wanna lose control. I don't wanna change anything unless i want. I don't wanna ruin you or make anything happen. So don't come to me..

An hour, a minute, a second, whatever it means to be, it's all worth it.

2010-03-06T21:27:00.000+08:00

Justin bieber is so cute. But he just seem more and more like a playboy to me. Still i love his song. Chong and other influence. They started playing his song ' baby '. That'a why:D

:D

2010-02-21T17:36:00.002+08:00

Wah.. Very long no post. Teehee... Ok, roughly what i've been going on.

Obviously, i've been hanging round more with FAMILY, Zherong, Zhengxiang, Rachel. And lesser with LOVER, Maisarah, Khamarul and Salik. [ FYI : FAMILY - Yuxin, Jiahong, Weizheng, Steve and Kok wooi. LOVER - Winnie, Chong, Marc and Rach. ] I miss LOVER a lot. Must go out one day with them. MUST MUST MUST. And of course totally no studying. PLEASE. I got my own reasons why i don't want to study with you guys. If you guys are thinking because i don't want to study and only play, then i got nothing to say liao. I just won't ever ever study with you guys already. Sorry. Then very long no go out with you guys. I feel so far from you guys. Then of course, you guys changed. I don't know how, but can feel. Feel so wired.. I miss you guys so so much. You guys were like my family. Of perhaps, more than family...

On 11 Feb, Me, Winnie, Yuxin, Hadi, Idthir, Steve, Kok wooi, Jiahong, Weizheng, Zherong and zhengxiang went prawning :DD First time sia. Hahahhas:DD Very happy. Lalalalalalala~~ HAHAHA. The girls team, Yuxin, winnie and me, POWDERFUL SIA! Of course for winnie and yuxin only. HEHEHE. I cannot catch even one sia. Keep praying hard got prawn come to me lohs. Ke lian sia me.. Hahahahs. Actually we go prawning is to celebrate Yuxin's birthday. Hahahas.

On the 12 feb, I went back to JPS. I miss JPS lots man. Then go back only for a while. All thanks to some freaking bastards. Go and break the basketball hoop then some freaking bitches shout here shout there. Crazy mentals. So we were all, everybody, forced to go home. Eeish.. I went to meet John and Zhaoen :DD Very long no see them. Then got other people. Seriously, i don't really know them =.=

On the 13 feb, went back to malaysia. Celebrate chinese new year. Only went to KL. Very long no see grandpa. As in he did came to singapore during the december, But it only for this period, Only for more than 2 months i havent seen him, i just looks so weak and old when i saw him this time, wah.. feel so sad sia. But it's chinese new year people! Cannot sad. Must happy. Think of... ANGBAO. Muahahs! LOL. Mmm.. Then blahs... Sammie was there too:D Then it's 14 feb! Valentines day! Chinese new year! And happy birthday yuxin and samantha.b ! Hahahs. Wasn't able to say happy birthday to Samantha.b. Feel so bad sia. Even if now say also so so late liao. :( Sorry. But got very happy thing. I bought my first official heel! Ohmygod! Darn happy! Laalalalla ~~ [ starting to lazy liao ; as in continue to type everything out ] Ok..

15 feb, GENTING. Very fun. Everyone. Please go. Hahahahs.

16 feb, come back singapore. Like so short sia the trip. Then somemore KL sososo far.. Then shorten the time somemore. Then even worst..
19 feb, went to kok wooi's house. Got bunny sia! LOL. Very cute. I want one! Hahahhas.

ok. That's almost bout everything i had. Hahhahas.

Tag please. Tolong. LOL

2010-02-08T12:33:00.001+08:00

People. Come my blog please tag lehs. Please. LOL. My blog like die liao sia. Lmao. I'm not even allowed to use computer during weekdays, unless during DNT lesson lohs. Weekends is only if i'm at home. Hehehs.. Sister's always snatching computer away from me. Eeish... God damn it... Anime is all she needs in hwer whole life. Yeah yeah~ whatever... Rebel is all i wanna do now? LOL. I mean i obviously won't rebel mom and dad. Sister? Don't need rebel, just slap liao. LOL. Her attitude's getting worst and worst. Teachers.. Chinese : BORING. This is all i can say. Math : BORING. God damn the teacher. Her lesson's bloody slow. DNT : COMPUTER! All i want man! LOL. Chemistry : STRAIGHT-FORWARD. I think the teacher is the best man. Physics : DIE!!! Please die sooner or later, cause you're wasting my time. English : DUCK ?! Guess what? VP's currently teaching us english. =.= Ok done with craps

Tag please. Tolong. LOL

2010-02-08T12:33:00.000+08:00

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2010-02-01T13:17:00.001+08:00

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Wz making stars :D

2010-02-01T13:15:00.002+08:00

wz making stars don't know for who. Maybe jy? Hahahas. Good luck mr ! Hahahahs. Make like damn many. I don't have that much patience for someone. Maybe for love? Hahahas. MAYBE ! I'm needa make many many hearts. For yuxin bday, Grandparents, Parents, Sweetheart sammie. Maybe for some people : LOVER, retarded sebas, wz, jh, kw. Don't know lahs. Hahahas. See my mood first. teehee

tomorrow Kok wooi's bday

2010-02-01T13:13:00.002+08:00

I think tomorrow won't be using computer. So happy adnvance bday to kok wooi first. Hehehehs. Happy birthday! he also another bloody tally. Eeish... Wish you don't grow taller liao. Haahahahs! feel so bad. Faster find girlf lahs. LOL. Everytime SNSD and 2pm coming out from your mouth only. Haii ee.. LOL.

Happy bday grandpa!

2010-02-01T13:12:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday grandpa! If i'm not wrong. That's what i heard from my mother. She say it's grandpa's bday. Haaahahahs! Grandpa, though you can't read english at all, Still live longand happy and healty. I Love you :DDD

Happy bday grandpa!

2010-02-01T13:12:00.000+08:00

what should i make for yuxin?

2010-02-01T13:10:00.001+08:00

People! any suggestion for Yuxin's birthday present? I've started to make small hearts. Hehehs. But then like what sia. Gam small man.. So must remake. But then like what also. So what should i make for her bday? She don't want people buy her present. Lmao.

they're back:D

2010-01-30T00:04:00.002+08:00

The sec 3 are back. I miss : Winnie, Maisarah, Khamarul, Weizheng, Jiahong, Steve, Kok wooi, Yuxin and many many more :DDD

Glad they're back. Hahahhas

I miss you guys badly ! :DD

It's different today:D

2010-01-25T20:03:00.002+08:00

Today is totally different and kinda out of expectation? LOL. I after school totally not with any of LOVER sia.. Wow.. Anyway, rach, ritchell and me saw steve and zhengxiang near the hall's staircase so we went over to ask where they going but then in the end we were chatting. Then more and more people - kok wooi, wei zheng, zhe rong and jiahong. Rach went to LOT 1 to study. RACH, WHY?! LOL. After we went to Jiahong's house downstairs, to also wait for bus. But some of them are ' puff puff ' all the way. Hahhas. Weizheng went home to fix his new laptop. HAIIYO ! Then we took 51 then blahs went to IMM, without jiahong. Eat kopitiam. Hahahs. Damn Lmaos. Then they all went home. I tio scolding by mom sia. WTH. Nehmind...

Sorry people!

2010-01-25T20:00:00.002+08:00

Sorry people! Wrong info! Key's granfather didn't past away and no cancelling of fan meeting. Hahahs. Then ft island got go imm on 29th night sia.. should i go? i want go lahs. But then mom will let mehs? eeish...

Key...

2010-01-24T20:22:00.002+08:00

' Key, sorry bout what happened to you. Stay strong! ' I read winnie's blog and found out key's grandparents as in both grandfather and grandmother passed away not long ago. The grandmother went away first then the grandfather. That must be a big blow. And shinee cancelled the trip to singapore. oh.. Though it's tragic news to the fans but i rather they don't come. What's the point when key is having a messed up feeling. And of course that will affect the other memebers. So, key, stay strong alright? Get well over it then come to singapore. The fans will understand[:

Jonghyun.. cannot see him:( haiis.. nevermind. Meanwhile, shinee must take care of your own health hoh, especially key. I love you shinee!! :DDDD